one of the drawbacks of staying here is that i'm always out of the loop..well not really always but i'd be the last to know...i dun wanna be the last to know but it can't be helped i guess..i just want to know what's going on...i wanna be around...

am probably just blowing things out of proportions but i can't help but feel a lil bit scared...esp when i'm here and they're there and i'm so far away...

i just hope that everything is ok...